. . .. time to dust out the cob webs that are threatening to make themselves permanent residents in my nogan. Man alive. I've been blogging up all kinds of goodness these past few months. . .it's the posting part that's been slowing me down. . .:)
No more. This is the time of year to begin kicking my excuses in the teeth and choosing to BE MIGHTY!
My writing has been paralyzed this past while partly because I've been choosing to be a nervous sweating dork. I had two speaking engagements in April, both of which are now over. . .whew. I know that for some reason stretching myself in this area is what I'm supposed to be doing. . .but it really freaks me right out. Hardcore. I sweat and jitter and pace and literally act like a donkey (Heee Hawwww) right up until the minute before I go on stage. I know God is growing something in me in this area. . .because He came through BIG TIME. I was the keynote speaker at the two day conference in Brandon called Capturing Opportunites, I spoke at the banquet gala. . .there had to be at least 700 people there. . .I'm sure the folks at my table were pretty nervous about my impending performance since my uncontrolable shaking hand made it impossible to hold onto my speech notes which I kept dropping under the table. . .. Argh. It was ugly. I was not proud. So exit stage left to the bathroom where I pleaded with God to quiet my racing brain. . .and if He could please also do something about the shaking and sweating. . .that would be great too! Well, He came through on both fronts. Thank you Lord:)
HE IS MIGHTY.
I walked up on stage and opened with my mennonite/irish joke. . got a few laughs and was off. . for the first time EVER. . I was able to THINK on stage. . which sounds weird, but usually I have no memory of what I say. . and could literally repeat myself over and over again and have zero knowledge of it. . yes, I get that nervous. .. it's ridiculous!
God's grace got me through, I just had to step out into my fear and involve Him in the process and He took over. . .it was amazing. . a great lesson. . .at the end I received a STANDING OVATION!!! It didn't even seem right? And I can't take credit for it. . .which in many ways is the best part, my victory was trusting God, the standing ovation was for Him as far as I was concerned. . .I'm still floating a bit. . .don't know if I'll ever see that again in my life:)
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