This weekend was filled with fairs and fields. . .I gave myself one heck of a pep talk and carted all four kids to the Niverville fair. .. the first night I had my sister, bro-in-law and mom to help me, but all day Saturday was solo. . and breastfeeding. .. it was awesome. .and yes somewhat hellish all at the same time. . .and I was being slightly sarcastic when I said "awesome";) Now I know I wasn't the only one doing the one woman show routine, but somehow this year it just felt wrong. . .knowing my husband hasn't slept inside for days. . . he's been literally running round the clock trying to get the seed in the ground. Our livelihood. . .I sometimes feel useless/clueless as a farmers wife. . .I often tell Grant that he really should have married a good ole Mennonite gal. . .instead of this Irish chick. . .then maybe some homemade buns would make it out to the field, and she would probably know how to make that ohhhhh. . you know what I'm talking about, that deep fried dough stuff that goes with watermelon. . what's the name??? Whatever it is, it would probably be nice to surprise our awesome crew with on a hot dusty day. . .
During seeding and harvest when it's so busy, and stressful and rain is looming I tend to do a disappearing act, thinking in my head that I'm being super helpful by not being a bug and taking up his precious time. . but then forget that he may actually appreciate company or something(!). . .I'm learning. .. I still don't have this wife thing down yet. .never mind the "farmers wife" thing, and after a crazy run like this, it often hits me. . .too little too late. .. Colleen. . what the heck?. . .better get my butt in gear for harvest. . .
The countdown is on. . .the guys are hours away from finishing. . .we hopped in with Grant around supper hour and helped deliver meals to the crew. . .here are some cruddy pics I took from the cab of the truck. . not stellar by any means. .. but they carry with them an aura of victory. . .you just have to look hard enough;)
I couldn't resist taking this close up of the bull dog hood ornament on our MAC truck:) It just fit the mood for the evening. .. his defiant stature. . proudly pushing out his chest as the rain clouds circled. . BE VICTORIOUS. . .I can almost hear him growl. . .
This farming gig is something else. . .I am in awe of our hardworking crew and especially my crazy husband. I don't even know how it's physically possible for him to function on as little sleep as he does when he has to organize the logistics of seeding a 13000 acre farm. . .and the rain won't stop?? When he sees a window that guy can make tracks. . .I'm pretty sure the prayers for wisdom the kids pray for him every night are working:)
Every time I feel stress/fear starting to get a foothold in my thought-life, I combat it with the eternity perspective. . .wherever this life takes us. . .I don't care about anything more than being in God's will. If at the end of my life here I have ran the race with integrity and truly followed HIM, then that is the victory, the purpose and my salvation. I am excited to welcome whatever His plan is for our lives, no matter how hard it is. . .I would rather be clinging to Him in the storm than walking my own path. .
We will walk through trials, but His burden is light. . .it's a promise. Cast your cares upon the Lord for He cares for you:) Yup. . .time to let that one sink in. . .
I still don't hear tractors rumbling back to the yard, but I also don't hear rain drops on the windows. . .(!)
Unlike my husband, I don't have super powers, so this farm wife is hitting the hay. . .dreaming dreams of exponentially effective heat units raining down on our late seeded crops. . AMEN!
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Wow, Colleen! You are super-mom! Taking all of your kiddos to the fair and all!
I really appreciate your words of wisdom....it is so easy to loose focus on the Eternal in our crazy day-to-day lives. You're an awesome mom!
Posted by: Becky | June 12, 2011 at 10:38 PM
Becky you are too kind!! I don't know about super mom. . what I didn't write in the post was that at the end of the day on Saturday the kids had come to a consensus. . "ahhh mom?. .can dad take us to the fair next year. .. he's way more fun. . "
Argh! I either didn't do as good a job changing my attitude as I thought?? Or else I'm totally boring?. . I'll just take the knife out of my heart now;)
But yeah, that eternal perspective does the trick every time!
Posted by: Colleen | June 13, 2011 at 10:08 AM
I'll help you make the roll kucken for harvest...how hard could it be? It's just dropping twist knots of dough into a vat of boiling vegetable oil...what could go wrong?!
Posted by: Ella | June 13, 2011 at 12:30 PM
With two half Irish chicks at the helm!!? We may need some whisky for this;)
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Posted by: Colleen Dyck | June 13, 2011 at 01:10 PM
2 Irish chicks, whisky, a vat of oil and a gas stove... do I ALWAYS have to be the downer??? lol... you guys are cute ;)
Posted by: Ky | June 14, 2011 at 08:01 PM
heh heh!!
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Posted by: Colleen | June 15, 2011 at 11:06 AM