Waiting, wishing, hoping. . .and waiting?

How does that Jack Johnson song go again?? Anyways. .. that's what I've been consumed with over the past week. . .waiting to hear if I get my loan approved so I can push the BIG FAT GO BUTTON on Gorp:)

WELL!!!! I got word yesterday that the loan review meeting was pushed back till today at 2:00. . .so by 3:30 or so TODAY. .. I will know one way or the other. gulp.

IT feels very surreal in these parts this morning. . .I'm pannicky and cold. . .why am I so darn cold? I could hardly sleep a wink last night. . .so if you feel like sending up a few prayers for me today it would mean a lot:)

I started this blog originally to journal the story of launching this energy bar company. . but then things like life, kids, passions, exercise, recipes and various rants on everything from religion to trips to the emergency room because a googly eye got shoved up a nose. . .it all kinda snuck in. (oh and let's not forget the half naked flight across the yard, prego and hanging from a flipping kite!. . .I still have a funny road rashy mark on my butt from that one. . .)

I appreciate my faithful commenter's and emailers more than I can say. . .I also recognize and am grateful for the rest of you who read. . .you are a quiet bunch and that's cool. . I'd be lying if I said I wasn't VERY curious who you are though. . .so if you ever feel like introducing yourselves via email. .. I'd love to hear from you:) Writing this blog has been a strange blessing, I've worked out some shizat for sure. . .met some beautiful people and found a way to let out some angst;) I'm talking like it's all about to end. . .it's not. . .I hope.

I think I'm feeling particularly vulnerable and sentimental today because I've committed to share this journey and now a very big part of it being successful is looming. .. m-o-n-e-y. . .and it will feel like I've failed if I don't get this loan. . .not that it means I'll give up HELL NO. . .but it makes for a kind of embarrassing large bump along the way. . .every once in a while I get an email from a stranger who is embarking on the same journey I am. . setting up some kind of business, usually something to do with food and setting up a commercial kitchen and I have the honour of cheering them on. . .I love it. . .I love seeing people step out and DO IT AFRAID. . .chase that darn dream down, tackle it and give it a good old fashioned noogie. Yup. . .it makes me smile:)

. . .man I'm mushy today. . I should really stop typing before I embarrass myself;) Although it's probably too late for that. . .my plan today is distraction. . . what better way to do that than to go get my mustache waxed off. . see ya sucker, your free ride is OVA. Then I'll probably crank some melancholy music and make some bars. .. but before I go. . I'll leave you with an AWESOME ACCIDENTAL SMOOTHIE I made up this morning. . .cause this is what happened to be in the fridge!

 
What you'll need:

1 cup of fresh pressed apple cider!

(You can buy it, but if you have access to a tree pick those suckers and bring them on down to the Apple Junction in Landmark , the wonderful girls there will throw them in an apple press for ya. . soooooo good and much more nutritious than the dead juice in the stores.)

1 cup of cold brew rooibois tea

(You must buy one of these cold press tea jugs. . .look here. . .I have this one and it rocks, you can buy it locally at scoop and weigh.)

1/2 cup of frozen raspberries

1/2 a frozen banana

4 tablespoons of hemp protein fiber blend

(I'm nuts about this stuff. . .check it out: 14 grams of fiber! 11 grams of protein, no sugar, 3 grams of fat and only 127 calories. . .FANTASTIC!)

It tastes AMAZING plus it's packed full of antioxidants from the fresh cider and berries. Perfect for after a workout. . .

. . .that's it that's all. . .I've got a stash to wax and a phone call to wait for. . .ahhhh!!! (on both counts:)

be mighty!

Comments

[Mel]

Praying Colleen! You are awesome and MIGHTY! :)

[Colleen]

Thanks so much for your kind words and prayers Mel. . .IT MEANS A LOT!

[Andrea]

you never fail to make me smile, colleen. xo

[Colleen]

:)